Querida

2010-11-16T10:40:00.001+08:00

Hello!
I wonder if there anyone out there still read my blog?

Wonder Wonder Wonder.

Drop me a comment if you do. :)

2010-05-05T08:07:00.000+08:00

Move.

http://stuck-inbetween.tumblr.com

2010-04-08T14:13:00.002+08:00

"Sometimes crying over a spilled milk worth nothing."

Repent is word we used to say when we feels that there's a need to change in ourself. However, people often abused the word. They often claimed that they are ready but in actual fact they will never be ready. Repent means you stop going in circles and start on a new road. When many start to repent, they tend to do it temporary and then they start moving in circle all over again. The reason is repent is not an easy task. It is something that comes from the bottom of the heart. Someone who is really looking into the right direction and not having second thoughts about doing it. In order to make it happen, we need motivational support especially from our love ones. A good communication and strong relationships can help someone repent easily.

2010-04-07T10:35:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder isn't it amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces. The fact that he can do it over and over again yet you still love him with all your heart? And that's the reason why people claim that love is blind. Oh well but still Love is an amazing feeling.

2010-03-09T18:47:00.003+08:00

I once stop blogging due to the fact that I was concentrating on my life.
I can start swaying since I feel much better now.
With a stable income every month makes anyone happy right?
I'm being materialistic here because every one does. I'm saving up money for future plans and dreams which I'm sure I'll achieved somehow bit by bit.

I'm thinking of taking part time degree but I'm afraid to be lack of focused handling two at one time. Definitely not an easy task, working and studying at the same time. Tons of energy is definitely required.

Perhaps I keep it to later. For now, let's enjoy life then.

:)

2010-03-07T12:21:00.004+08:00

I had a recollection of all the things happened last year. A terrible roller coaster ride made a great impact on me and makes me see life in a new perspective. I came to realised that having problems in life is indeed a blessing. I was force into few crossroads before I've finally went on a straight road. Those crossroads made me learn to love myself more.
I did came to a point that I decided to get stuck in the middle of the crossroad and stop thinking about which side to choose. Life was completely unfair for the first time. Things just refused to go my way. Things that I've planned refused to abide. When everyone around you is moving on, life seems darker than ever. I was stuck, hanging in the air wondering which road to choose after one and other collapsed on me. Tears running out without end with life just seems to come to an end. However, I was blessed with a wonderful family, with my mama and papa who would wake and shake me every time, I breakdown and tell me that I should keep searching for the gold HE's been keeping for me. Dear was there when I needed him the most, when I cried, he's the one who carry me up and tell me every single day that I can do it. That is the time, I also realised that being in love wasn't as easy when he left me to serve the nation. But being apart from him, makes my love for him and myself even stronger than ever. It was such a great breakout when I finally find my way out from the darkness and let everything free. I realised that I've found my way back after went through a rough maze.

And then I realised,

"Sometimes you need to be apart from someone you love, but that doesn't mean you love him any lesser. Sometimes it even makes you love him even more."

Being apart from him, do makes me realised how much he meant to me, how much I long for him. Nobody else can make me feel this way.

"Look inside your heart and you'll find me whenever I'm not there with you."
I love you baby.
Thank you for your love.
You're just like a dream to me.

2010-03-05T21:33:00.004+08:00

Hey there,
I've fallen in love many times,
and it is always with you.

ily

30 months coming up... :)

2010-02-22T13:55:00.002+08:00

You're the man I love.
I have nothing else to say.
Thank you for making me special.
You're just beyond the rest.
You put me to tears for the beautiful scarifies you made.

You're just simply the best.

2010-02-13T00:08:00.001+08:00

Darling come home quick...

2010-02-08T17:23:00.004+08:00

Red Lipstick.

ily
29th

2010-01-20T15:32:00.003+08:00

Life wasnt the same anymore when you are an adult.

Smile and laugh with an adult.
Deal with an adult.
Speak like an adult.
Eat and drink with an adult.
Think like an adult.
Every single thing you did, you must know that you are an adult now.

I wish I could go back to school like I used to.
I wish I'm having pre-exams stress at this moment like I used to.
I wish I'm sitting in the lecture hall playing daidi/chat with my friends.

I wish I was given the chance again but I have to live with it.
Move on I suppose that's every one will say.

I'm yearning of having new friends at work of my age.
There's one or two but we just weren't in the same department.

I had never knew how it feels to lead someone, now I know it wasn't as easy as I think to become a leader. It feels really sucks and I wish that I'm just simply a follower.
But again, I'm stuck if I plan to always be a follower.
Again, I'm moving on. Trying my best every single day to get things right.
There are people whom understands my situation but some just don't seems to.

Being a polytechnic student taught me on how to be independent. I did an independent learning at work with the help of my attendances. How I wish things are the way I wanted it to be.
But then again, I must not complain and indeed I must learn to change things for the better.

I'm trying to get things stabilise now. I know I can just like he said. Right? :)

2010-01-11T21:56:00.003+08:00

Stay with me.

2009-12-22T13:13:00.003+08:00

I love you

Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the sea
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up world

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me

And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side

Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love you

Dangerously in love
Can't do this thing
I love you , I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep on loving me
I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
I love you
Dangerously in love

I'm sorry that I mistook you.
You've been such a sweetie.
If only I could turn back time.
I love you.

2009-12-19T09:43:00.000+08:00

I believe in happily ever after.

:)

2009-09-30T12:12:00.003+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya
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My darling bestfriend.

Our darling boyfriends.

The first raya We, bestfriends with boyfriends, celebrated together. :)

I love you dear. Always.

2009-08-23T00:23:00.006+08:00

Selamat Berpuasa

Everything you need to know, you know where to go.

This is not where I express anything anymore.

Goodbye.

Love, Querida

2009-07-23T18:13:00.001+08:00

I love you.

It was then that I realized that forever was in your eyes the moment I saw you cry.

2009-07-20T17:22:00.003+08:00

Almost a year I live without pimples with exception of those extreme mini ones.
But few days ago, I was bless with 2 small red bumps on my left cheek.
They are painful and extremely irritating. Making me feel like peeling them off.
Mama hate it when I disturbed the zits.
She said they'll get worse when you keep touching or squeezing them.
I've been layering moisturizers on my face to take away the redness but nothing change.
Or perhaps I'm just not patience enough.
A pimple is caused by blockage of the skin pores. When the outer layers of skin shed, the dead skin cells left behind may "gel" together by the sebum produced by the pores. Therefore pimple occurs. On the other hand, it's great to know that my skin is shedding. Mean while, it is important to ensure that the bacteria won't deteriorate my skin further. That's the reason why we need to make sure our skin is clean and healthy.

Lately, mama seems unwell. She complaint having strains on her arm. I wonder why.
Sometimes, I wish I could be a doctor. I love the feeling of helping someone and being able to save someone's life. Or maybe I am bless to do something similar. Maybe like making a difference in someone's life. Inspire someone to fulfill their true potential. Plus, I want to be one happy woman. Be satisfied with everything I own. Even though there might be some that I was just unable to fulfill.

He made me the most happiest girl today when he said... I was extremely shock with his statement. He really mean it. I'm looking forward even more for future.

I want to dream about all the things that I hope for.

2009-07-18T22:16:00.005+08:00

Jalan-Jalan Cari Makan

Happy birthday sweetheart.
The day you are one year older.

I know you love all the surprises I got for you days ago, yesterday and today. Haaha.
Thank you for everything.
The midnight muvee with you yesterday was great.
The "unplanned" date today was just perfect.
I can't wait for tuesday and wednesday when we'll go on a ride.

The best part of the day.
Durian. :)

I love you.

2009-07-13T23:59:00.006+08:00

3 Roses: I LOVE YOU.

I chose roses this time round. Trying something new.
Thank you dear. It was a surprise that you brought me there to choose my own flowers.
Now I know how much money you throw to get those lovely flowers just for your sweetheart.
You are the most sweetest person honey. I love you. Really do.

Roses are beautiful though I still prefer daisies.
Mixture of them both would be great.

Mummy and daddy went to the Singapore flyer on Sunday.
They had fun and mummy and daddy took picture themselves.
Like young couples would do. Haha. So sweet.
I'm glad you had fun. I can see that on the photo you bought.
Oh well, I've been working non-stop. Tiring but fun.
I need a break soon before I'm gonna be like a real woman.
I need to save up, for future of course and for lil dreams of mine.

Baby, *** *** ** *********.
I love you *** ***** ** ** ****.

I'll miss you more than ever.

My heart beat twice at the same time upon meeting you today.
I hope you feel the same way too.

2009-07-09T20:51:00.004+08:00

Who would give you a free ipod shuffle? Would you?
Haha. Suria just did. Shocking. Really.
As I was picking up the phone, I had so many people in mind that might happened to call me.
I didn't expect to win something. It seems dead long ago that I don't even remember entering
the quiz by Cepat Tepat. It was just a random participation.
Perhaps, it's just my luck.

Suddenly, I felt that HE has something for me. All I need to do is be patience and believe.
I thought I was curse of having bad lucks. It takes me weeks to gain back myself.
Being who I am. I know there is something out there for me. I just have to wait.

I'm tired of thinking and being nervous for nothing. I guess I'll let fate decide and
I'll go whichever way comes. Mum had been super supportive. She kept saying it's okay.
You have me and dad. You are a girl not a man who need to support the family.
Thanks mum. I hope I could repay your kindness soon.
I have so many dreams for you and for myself. Only HE and him know about it.

I love you mr strong.

Please don't leave me.

I am beautiful because you love me.

2009-07-08T19:23:00.006+08:00

Thanks girls for the treat.
Hainita for Bali Thai. Splendid.
Joyce(lovelovelove) for the milk and breads.
Hope to see you girls again together with eileen.

To you, for giving me a princess treat at Gold Class for transformers2.

A big Thank You.
You girls and you will always be those people I adore.

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Things will change soon.
I'll be left to be stronger on my own.
I'll be left to do things on my own.
There's no more of us.
Just you and Just me.

I know things will be better in time.

Perhaps I need to believe in myself that things will go my way.
Things will be good for me.
I'll achieve whatever I want.
It will. All I need is to believe. Believe that I can.

Dear, I'll keep my promise.
Like you said, if we're fated, we will be together again like we used to (even closer).

ily.

Someone got to go.
It's you.
We'll move on.

2009-06-29T20:25:00.004+08:00

He was at his best in this era.
He look exceptionally Wow and Hot.
Before he change his face shape and nose again to walking zombie instead.

He had fulfilled his promise and I'm very happy that I feel like jumping up and down.
Haaahaa. Thank you my dear handsome, great, wonderful, cute, macho, strong boyfriend/bestfriend.

Wednessday.
YahOoOoOoooooooooooOoooo.

My wish is your command. Right?

2009-06-27T23:24:00.012+08:00

Breakfast was incredible with the girls at McDonald.
Oh well, new friend addition.
Thank you Yana for introducing me to Feeqah.
Sweet. More often of this ya.

Next,

It's not my intention to boast around.
Look at you showing off your watches.
Don't need to wear both of them at the same time.

His birth date is 2 weeks later. However, he got himself a gift from me.
We had a mini advance celebration. He's okay and seems to enjoy his most wanted gift.
Excited la, when I got him what he wanted.
Even his brother were talking about it, saying that I might be getting him that.
Btw, it's not the watch he's boasting on.
It's just another watch. Haha.
Should have ask him to wear 3 watches at the same time.

I'm so not jealous cause I love my JLo.
And I have my own diesel.

Excited. It's like he knows what I got for him.
So full of himself.
He got prank though cause I was wearing the watch.
Happily open to see my watch instead inside the box.
Happy kan! I'm double happy to see you smile.

20 cards for your 20th.
Oh well, Happy Birthday in advance. Extremely advance I tell you.
You should know why I had to do this.

The bag nice la. Appreciate it alot. Thank you.
Stay true to your promise, you said it.
I'm waiting honey. Haaaha.

Disappointed that I couldn't get a hold of a book.
Little Lost Angel by Michael Quinlan.
Please look it out for me. Thank you.

2009-06-26T15:25:00.006+08:00

1958-2009
Michael Jackson is dead.

Shocking news. He had his whole energy on the coming MJ comeback concert.
Every sweats dripped down the drain just like that.
He's gone FOREVER.

His music and energy are superb.
However, I hate the fact what he had done to his face.
The plastic surgeries made him look like a walking zombie.

I'm not sure if we Singaporean knows about Shanda Sharer.
While surfing the Youtube few days ago, I found clips about this girl.
She's beautiful but it's such a waste that she was force to die at a young age of 12 in year 1992.
She was actually murdered by 4 teenage girls of age 15-17. Brutally murdered.
Even animals wasn't killed in the way she got killed.
I was utterly shock looking at those clips showing
the reenactment about how she was brutally killed.

Sexually assaulted, Tortured, Burned.
8-10 hours of suffering before burned alive.
Not a single empathy was shown by those girls.
The reason behind is JEALOUSY.

1979 - 1992

Catch/Read more on:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9KxmM8sEmRs
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dl_hyvnQhUw
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shanda_Sharer

2009-06-23T23:21:00.004+08:00

I miss the hats and everything else.
Including Umie, the horse. She's 24 years old and it is considered a matured horse.
Poor Umie whom had her back weight down by me.

She's beautiful though I would prefer Star, the white horse.
Seems that I have the skills to own a horse.
Would you get me one?

The hotels, the companies, the fun and laughter.
Those are the blissful moments I had.
I was suddenly so strong without him for once.
Hey, not that I don't miss you.
I do. You are portrait in my heart.

I love the country culture.
I love mountains, the hats, the horses, the sheep, the cows, the cottage.
I wish I own them all. Too bad that I am stuck here in the city.
In the outrageous city that I hope to run away from one day.
To an extend, I don't mind being a farmer. Indeed, I love to.

The most gorgeous people that are kept tightly in my heart.

Whose up to colorful outfit?
I do.

2009-06-12T23:32:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wonder if it's wrong to be sad.
Sometimes I wonder if it's wrong to cry.

I really dunno what should I do.
Where should I run to.
I'm lost.

Again.

Could you be the one who will bring me up?

2009-06-12T01:21:00.012+08:00

Today or specifically yesterday was a heaven night.
The reason basically I was given a chance to gym.
Dear cousin, took me and Maya to Fitness First at The Cathay for some kick boxing.
The place was crowded with people whom can't get enough of their body.
Sometimes I wonder, y waste money when you already have such a nice body.
I mean "chubby" people should go instead. These people seems to have countless of money I guess that they decided to throw some to "unnecessary" place for them. Like serious, the gym cost a bomb. My cousin whom inspired to lose off those fats paid like 300 plus for the gym facilities plus a personal trainer per month. However, she's lucky, her sayang paid for her.

The facilities really good though. The best thing about being a member is that you can use anything in fact everything in the gym. Like today we tried sauna after kick boxing class.
The fact that it was really my first ultimate time, I was super excited.
Laughing like crazy in the hot wooden box. That helps to erase our mind from thinking about the temperature of the room. Dear asked me y didn't you pour some water to the coal. Haha. I stupidly asked for what. He laugh and said that it'll make you feel even hotter.
Wah, he wanna me faint i guess. The place is already damn hot.
After 15 mins of sauna, my body looks "hot". Haha.
My skin got reddish everywhere. Nice. And I got to lose off that fats in me. Yay!

I felt happy. Really happy till I couldn't sleep right now.
Thanks to my dear cousin for the complimentary and snake bangle.
Awesome. Hoping there's more.
Also to him, for fetching me or else I'll be going home alone. How sweet. :)

As promise, there you go, Spiral Pasta with Salmon fish.
I love salmon so much. Dear should know that because everytime
he brought me to a restaurant, I would pick anything with salmon. Haha.

Oh how much I miss school. I was browsing my phone pictures when I found these.
These pictures were taken in the laboratory, block T2.
Chemistry lab I think.
How much I miss joking around with this girl. I miss you dear.

Us, we took the same elective just to be with each other.
How lame is that. But we had so much fun though studying together.
The best thing is that I was wearing his tshirt on that day.
I suppose I wanted to wear an oversize tee to school.
I even got teased from friends about me wearing his tee.
Childish. :)

And in the SP library.
One of our mini dating location.

Damn, thinking about it makes me wanna return.
I wish I could, you know sometimes.
But that's how life works. Look forward.

Nothing else than to remember those sweet memories.
We are simply lucky to have such thing as Camera.
Those pictures can be kept forever online, printed, anywhere.

Please don't leave me.
I'm scared.

ily and imy.

2009-06-10T00:47:00.002+08:00

Babe, guess what?! I'm using your iPod to blog. Hehehe.
Sorry, I'm super lazy to on my lappy and
I couldn't seems to shut my eyes.
I want one la. Can put it in my birthday list? Please!
Actually I got pictures to upload about my bro's creation.
I'm kinda proud of him. I guess next time I'll share how wonderful my dinner was.
Spiral pasta with salmon. :)

I wonder when will be my next outing with JEH. Hope to see you girls soon.

You're being miss so much by me hun.
Please come by tomorrow k Hun.

Till then,
Love querida.

2009-06-08T23:04:00.005+08:00

Our first 3-D muvee experience.
Monsters vs Aliens.
Thumbs up!
Some rules are simply meant to be broken.
Snaps in the muvee theater is suppose to be a big NO NO.

Next, Keppel Bay.

The best thing to do here is to snaps some shots.
The place is great. The scenery, the calmness, the breeze.
Makes me so happiee. Had a rested mind atleast for a while.
Also, we had a mini "wrestle" game.
Hahaha.

We did nothing than being vain. Perhaps that what we or maybe me enjoy a lot.

Even though this not really a beach, I still feel relax and wonderful.
My wish came true. Thank you.
Take my heart with you always. :)
Love you love.

2009-06-07T12:41:00.003+08:00

The most happiest occasion for me and my family espescially him.

We love you.

I love you dear so much. :)

2009-06-04T17:23:00.003+08:00

I feel good.
I've been jogging constantly for the past weeks.
Exercise do release my mind atleast for awhile.
I'm tired of thinking and wondering.
Somehow I need a good laugh. Really.
Everything seems so stressing lately.

I feel like laughing till I cry.

Can anyone be my laughing pill?

I feel like crying too but I'm too tired for that.
I need a shoulder. I need someone to talk to.

My wish:
Someone to walk with me at the beach and at the same time make me laugh till I cry.

2009-06-02T20:35:00.010+08:00

Something tick me off today.
Out of sudden I feel myself again.
Hahaha. :) I'm superciliously excited.

Babe, I want this again la. Please.
I'm craving for them. The fries, the ice-cream.
No wonder, I was "chubby" at that period. Hahaha.

The times when he's face got attacked by the bad bacteria.
Poor baby.
Even his friends were shocked when they met him at that state.
I still love and adore him though.
I was the one whom force him to visit the doctor.
We went to and fro to go for check-up and received the medicines
for his face for about 3 months.
The process took about 6 months though.

The doctor really transform him from this bad.

To this pretty face. Hehehe.

Bravo Doctor.
Thanks to the doctor who save him.
He look wonderful now.

If you love that person a lot, you'll love him no matter what he look like.
He will always be the most gorgeous person you see.
Beauty does not guarantee long-term happiness. It is what inside you.

Babe, I love you dearly.
We miss Vera, right dear?

To Good Samaritan, who are you?

2009-06-02T12:26:00.002+08:00

Nothing seems to be the way
That it used to
Everything seems shallow
God give me truth,
In me,
And tell me somebody's watching
Over me,
And that is all I'm praying is that

Someday i will understand
in god's whole plan
and what he's done to me
Oh but maybe someday i will breathe.

Dear god, please give me the strength to move on to the real world.
Please show me the right way and bless me.
Hopefully, one day, I'll understand everything that lies within me,
everything that You have written for me.

2009-05-29T22:40:00.005+08:00

Officially graduated.

Mama had this idea of taking formal pictures of me in the robe.
Being so vain, of course, I'm utterly excited.
So I doll myself up, get dressed and ready.

Mum help me with the formal shots, while those vain shots are taken by me of course.
Oh well, it's expensive to take studio shots outside.
So we created one with just normal camera.
Yet I love the outcomes. Wonderful.

After which, I became Vain Queen.
Took tons of pictures of myself. Haha. Pardon me.

That's it.
Boredom leads to this.

I stop when Mama called me to help her with the chores.
Haha. I almost got scolded for being too vain. Sorry mama.

Do you want to get this studio shots?
5 bucks per picture taken.
Haha.
Dear, you must be my first customer okay?

2009-05-29T00:31:00.011+08:00

270509

49th Graduation Day 2009

The people whom I love so much.
They are the ones who are there for me without fail.
Love you mama, papa, brothers whom are not there and him.
Mama, papa, you are the best people I ever met in this world.
You bring me life with love, care, patience and more love.
I'll do anything to make you proud.
I love you with all my heart.

My best Lecturer. He's a crazy man with a wonderful attitude.
He really rocks my poly life a lot.
He was even there to support me during SP star. How sweet. :)

The Family.

The bestfriends.
Hainita missing.

The guys said, I'm the rose among the thorns.
Haha. Love you guys. Muah!
And of course the prettiest one among all. Haha.

The man.
I love you baby.

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Today marks the last day of school for the kindergarten children
and probably my last day of work.

This is my neighbor, friend, colleague.
She is a wonderful woman.

My Nursery children whom never makes me stop shouting and smiling at the same time.

My baby class.
Pre-nursery.

The cutest and happiest kids.
They always make my day even when I'm down with problems.
They make me smile and laugh just by being them.

This is Vera. My dear baby. She always had something to talk to me about. Be it about trees, clothes, friends. She only speaks chinese and she has been my chinese teacher since then.

My dear baby no. 2.
This is Shu-Han. Probably the richest kid among her friends.
She love clinging on me and hugging me.

Being a teacher was a wonderful experience that I'll never forget.
I took the challenge even though I wasn't that able to control group of kids.
They can be super active and very mischievous but they are still lovable to me.
I really adore them a lot. I'm gonna miss them so much especially my Vera, Shu Han, Iqa, Dylan.
I hate GOODBYES.

Finally, I think I know what I wanna be.
I hope my dream may come true.
Bless me allah.
Amin.

Last but not least, thanks baby for the wonderful date today.
It's been so long. I miss you already.

Till then,

Love,
querida.

2009-05-26T20:22:00.004+08:00

270509

Graduation day.

Hoping so much it would come.
Finally it's tomorrow.

I'm sure tears might appear tomorrow.
It is sad leaving everything behind.
It is time for goodbye.
No longer SP student. Just alumni.

Last week, my lecturer sms me.
He asked about my whereabouts and everything.
Missing him, Missing the school a lot.
Miss the laughter, crazyness, we used to had in the class,
lecture theater, library and everywhere else in the school.
Everything is over now.

I'm glad that I know every single of my friends.
They change my life and I appreciate all those moments we share.

See you tomorrow.

2009-05-24T20:40:00.008+08:00

He is the one who made me feel that there's more to life.
He is the one who made me feel that I should be contented with what I have.
He is the one who made me stop from throwing my cash away.
Like when I wanted to get another hairband, he said "dear, they work the same way"
He is the one who made me feel that I am beautiful even without me losing off my unwanted fats.
He said, "dear, you are beautiful the way you are."
He is the one who pull me up when I was falling hard. He said, "I'm here baby. Don't worry."
He is the one who put a smile on my face even when he was the one surrounded with problems.
He is my strong, patience, understanding love.

It seems as if I've known him forever.
He is there for me even when we were in our battlefield.

I love him.

He is my course-mate, lecture-mate, bestfriend, boyfriend and lover.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Ps, I still wanna get a good body shape. Hahaha.
I think being just skinny isn't healthy.
I envy those girls with tone body.
That's what I wanna do, get a tone body.
Haha. Can or not achieve that? Only time will tell.
Let Mr ex-gym member show me the right way.

I was down with fever for about a week.
Due to that I can wear two size down jeans. That's how much weight I've shed.
Nanny said, "I'm shocked looking at you, you are losing so much weight"
Hahaha. Thanks nanny. I love hearing that. Haha.

Anyway, smile and be happy.
You'll look beautiful.

2009-05-23T16:44:00.008+08:00

This is the journey of my life.

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

2009-05-23T15:28:00.003+08:00

Obsession with heels.
The crazy thing about me is that I love heels so much.
Yet when I'm on a casual outing, I wore flats.
How about that?
The flaws, heels seems to bring out a maturity in a girl like me.
And it is super tiring to get your feet on them.
Oh well, I'll wear my heels only on occasions.

Thursday is a break-free.
Finally, I got to do some shopping with my own cash.
I feel happy. After months of surviving. Haha.

Dear love, you have been "contributing" so much to me.
Thank you for everything. But i feel so dependent.
I'm sorry if I seems to be high-maintenance girl.
I wanna be Ms Independent.
And just wanna let you know, you are the reason why I am able to breathe AGAIN.
I was almost drown and you save me. ;)

Yes I can breathe.
I got new resolution now.
A change in my body figure.
To achieve that, I need constant exercising.
Haha. He will be laughing his ass now. Oh well, I'll prove to you. :P

2009-05-21T21:22:00.003+08:00

Confession of the heart.

I'll put that way for you.
I love you honey.

2009-05-19T15:55:00.000+08:00

Jangan lagi kau sesali keputusanku
Ku tak ingin kau semakin kan terluka
Tak ingin ku paksakan cinta ini
Meski tiada sanggup untuk kau terima

Aku memang manusia paling berdosa
Khianati rasa demi keinginan semu
Lebih baik jangan mencintaiku aku dan semua hatiku
Karena takkan pernah kau temui, cinta sejati

Berakhirlah sudah semua kisah ini
Dan jangan kau tangisi lagi
Sekalipun aku takkan pernah mencoba kembali padamu
Sejuta kata maaf terasa kan percuma

Sebab rasa ku tlah mati untuk menyadarinya
Semoga saja kan kau dapati
Hati yg tulus mencintaimu
Tapi bukan aku

2009-05-18T01:00:00.001+08:00

Will you be there to put a smile on me?

2009-05-17T19:01:00.003+08:00

I think I should cry and let everything out.
To some extent, there's no point crying, it just make me even weaker.
For the first time, I felt so weak.

I'm sorry that I can't be there for you.
I felt sorry for you too.

I thought I was going to fly, fly up to the sky.
Instead, I was left falling to the ground this time round.

2009-05-10T16:29:00.002+08:00

PRIVACY.

So many things happening in my life.
Yet I'm super lazy to elaborate.
I suppose my life content now shall be more private.

Some pictures will be still be posted just for my own memories.
As I came to become more mature and older,
I came to realise that some things are much nicer when they are kept private.

I love you sweetheart. You have been such a sweety.
I'm not jealous when you talked about other girls
because deep down you love only me.

Hahaha.

2009-05-04T23:09:00.002+08:00

Finally you are there.
Fetching me from work.
It's been the longest days we didn't catch up with each other.
I can't believe that I'm able to pull thru.
Muvee was great. Haha.
Thanks to Eileen we manage to get our graduation robe.

I'm sorry dear. I know. Haiz.
I should be more understanding just like you.
The time move. So quick.
I hate myself for being too emotional sometimes.
I know soon things wouldn't be the same anymore.
I'll miss you even more and more.
But I'm willing to wait. I'll support you whatever you wanna do alright.
I'll pray that we'll have a good life ahead.
You and me having a wonderful stable job. It will happen some day. Trust me.
Allah has something for us. We just have to be patience.
Remember "Patience Make Wonders".

To my dear cousin, I know you are extremely talented.
You can do it my dear. Trust me you will be someone big one day.
Just don't forget me alright? Haha.
If you do, I'll run after you. No worries. Haha.
I know you won't right?

Cheers to all my friends. I miss you guys.
Can't wait for graduation day.

To my dear sister, DON'T FORGET OUR DATE UH.

2009-05-03T00:49:00.005+08:00

Dad, you're one year older today.

Happy Birthday to you.
May all your prayers/wishes come true.
May you lead a happy life till the end with mama.

Happy 26th Anniversary too.
Wow. I really adore the love you had with mama.
I wish I could do the same too.
I hope that I'll be with the person who would love me forever.
Just like you are now with mama.
I'm proud to have you and mama as my parents.

Although you can be hard on me sometimes, I know you are doing that for my own good.
Dad, I would never want to disappoint you but sometimes I'm scared that I'm not able to accomplish your wishes.
I'm trying though but if I fail do forgive me.

I can't afford to get you air tickets to your dream vacation.
Atleast for now, I let you enjoy a ride that bring you closer to the sky.

I love you both so much.

2009-04-28T21:26:00.005+08:00

As the days passed, it feels heavier and heavier.
For some reason, my heart seems aching every hour pass.
At some point, it became a breaking down moment.
Is it meant to be mood swing?
Or Is it meant to be something that I've been kept thinking about?
I have no idea. I wanted to break loose the tension I had inside me.
Whenever I tried to, I would just break down.
When the world keep spinning, my head spins as well.

But I'm glad and contented that there are people who seems to provide me with motivational support.
I feel relieved even it only last for a moment before I'll be my own self AGAIN.
He said that I should stop thinking. But I can't help it dear. I am alone in some part of the day, every day especially during break. That's the time when I would make my mind wander.

I even put some people down due to the mood I am experiencing. I'm sorry.
It hurts me. I don't want to be this way. I need help. Really.
Please be by my side. Please make me smile and laugh. Please ensure that I am happy.
I hate the fact that I'm faking some of my smiles and laughter.

I'm not sure what's going on with me.
Perhaps I'm just experiencing a post-graduation pessimism.

However, atleast I'm glad that those kids do make me smile.
Really smile sincerely.

My heart beat twice upon seeing you.
I do know why I was blushing when you appeared just now.
I guess it's been a while. I miss you.

I want Ipod Touch too.
It has always been in my wanting list. You're making me jealous. :'(

2009-04-25T13:20:00.006+08:00

I know I'm strong to keep moving on.
I know that somehow I will make them proud.
To achieve that I'll keep trying.
Try, try and try as hard as I can.
I will never hurt you cause I know by hurting you I hurt myself.
I'll always be your baby girl, dad.

Bowling.

Started with my cute aunt.
She's the master mind.

The gorgeous couple.

Lil cousins that always make me smile.

Even my bestfriend was there.
Gorgeous aunts and cousins.Supper at Simpang Bedok. Best!
Additional dad. Haha. He sneak in while we were posing for the camera.

The rest said they look like me when I was at their age. Haha.
My cute brother.
The family that no one else has. :)
I enjoyed my day yesterday even though I was down with fever.
I miss the games but the fun still remains.
I love you all lovely family.

Welcome to the family!
Everybody enjoys having you as one of us.

2009-04-25T03:27:00.004+08:00

If you look at the time, it is 3:30 in the morning.
Somehow I was unable to shut my eyes.
Perhaps it may due to the weather. Or perhaps it was just me.
The feelings inside me that are so indescribable.

Despaired? Depressed?
I seems to tear up so easily.
I'm kind of tired with certain things that keep going in a circle.

This song reflects me a lot.
It do seems to explain some things that are lost inside me.

"I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb"

Yes, I feel lost.
Very lost.
I know I gotta be strong, I gotta be moving on.
Even though it is not easy to handle this life of mine currently, I'm still smiling.
The most important people in my life are those that make me smile.
They are my Family, especially mama.

If only I could share this with someone.
Someone whom would listen and understand.
I wish.

2009-04-21T21:56:00.001+08:00

I can honestly say you've been on my mind
Since I woke up today
I look at your photograph all the time
These memories come back to life
And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember the simple things
I remember til I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget is goodbye

2009-04-20T23:08:00.006+08:00

That was so spontaneous. We found a passport photo machine.
Went inside and snap, snap, snap. Haha.
That's my crazy idea. You are such a good sport. Thank you my dear.

I'm so in love with the pictures.
Atleast now I got a picture of us in a passport photo size.
Do you think it is possible to put that picture in my passport? Hehehe. I wish.

Thanks for being my photographer for the day. Nice shots.

You know what? Your smile really melt my heart. Just did.
I love you.

Ps: This post meant especially for him.

The best moment comes when there's such thing as waiting.
Patience make Wonders.
I hope it is true this time round again. Please.

2009-04-20T08:59:00.009+08:00

ATTENTION: Nur'Ain.

We need to meet up soon dear. Really-really soon.
I got something up for you. Hehehe.
You're finally 20.

Last minute beaching with family.
The fun and laughter we had were awesome.

My aunt who always rock the house.

That's my Arabian Nanny. Her nose damn sharp la.
Haha.

That's my cousin who looks like nanny during her younger days.

That's my friend/cousin.

Taufik look-alike. Just that he had a broaden face shape.

From thisto
My face was tan for a moment. Luckily.
I love beach but I hate too much sun.
Hmmm. Very contradicting.

We had satay, grilled chicken, rice, noodle, scramble eggs and more satay.
It's been so long since we had this meet up.
I really miss those times when we were small, always had family outings.
I guess TIME is what we need.

Can't wait to catch up with him later after work.
See ya honey.

2009-04-17T21:08:00.010+08:00

I almost had a heartbreak when he said...
I really dunno what to do.
Should I be sad?
Should I cry?
I am disappointed one way or another.

Oh god. May allah bless him and me.

It hurts me to say goodbye.
It really do.

Anyway, I had a wonderful moments with my besties. :)
I'm glad we met. Just that the time spent kinda short.
I hope we could do that again.

That's Jurong Point.
Congratulations to my two dear friends for passing their BTT.
This is so called a celebration for them.
Haha. And also a consolation moments for Yvonne whom
had a trauma due to her driving lesson earlier on.
Poor her. She said the car almost fly when she swift aggressively to prevent accident.

Oh well, I guess I'm lucky to be able to obtained my driving license earlier.
I'm so lazy when it comes to driving lesson. But thanks to him, I got the strength to carry on.
In fact, it's been a year now. No more P-plate for me. Haha.

2009-04-15T22:38:00.003+08:00

Changing of time-table.
I won't be taking the K1s anymore.
Kinda disappointing.

I'm dealing with the K2's outdoor. They are very naughty and hard to control. Haha.
In addition, I'm taking the nursery children for outdoor and also assisting for the pre-nursery children. Pre-nursery children are of course the most cutest ones. Really2 cute.
Everytime I look at them, I feel like kissing some of them. Haha.

Both of us is currently working more hours per day or more days then usual.
I kind of miss him even though just yesterday
he manage to accompany me while I was having my break for almost an hour and half.
The time spent was so short.
And I think probably Monday then I could spend more time with him after work.
Haiz. The time waiting is so long.

But I'm glad that I'll be meeting my friends tomorrow.
It's been almost 2 months since we last met. How I miss you guys.
Wonder how your lives going on?
Thank you for organizing the meet up.
Hehe. Like finally.

Oh ya, I've been playing The Sims 2 non-stop.
That's so childish of me. Hehe.

I shall get my rest now.
Till then,
Love Querida.

Ps: I love you lots love.
My days had been dull. Less make-up and fanciful dress-up of me. :(
I miss those days when we intentionally or unintentionally wore the same color
or decided to wear something gorgeous just for our date.
Can we do that again? Please dear.

Miss those lil cousins too.

2009-04-09T12:48:00.015+08:00

Teacher Fiza here.
Teacher Fiza there.
Woots, I'm so popular with the morning kids.
The K1, K2 and even the nursery children.
There all know me by Teacher Fiza or Miss Fiza.

After working for about 3 weeks, I came to realize that being a kindergarten teacher is not easy.
When I got hired, I was like what an easy job, to teach those kids.
But I was definitely wrong. The point is not about teaching.
Teaching is simple. But to be able to grab their attention and
ensure they follow whatever you say is definitely not near to simple.
They are very easily distracted.
Like once, when I was suppose to just talk to them.
No activity is recommended to be done.
They asked me, Teacher Fiza when are we gonna finish.
I feel for them but as a relief teacher, I only follow orders.
So I tried to make jokes with them or simply make them stand
and jump around for a moment so that they will be able to listened to the discussion again.

Next, besides teaching, I was instructed to take the children both K1 and K2 for outdoors. Outdoor is the best. The children love it so much. Even I love outdoor.
The reason is that I can threaten them. Don't behave, no outdoor.
Sit with me. Haha. So from there, they will try to behave and listen
to what I am going to instruct them what and not to do at the playground.

I even felt honored when the K2 children asked me. Will you take us for lesson?
I know that never gonna happen. But they were like y didn't you take us for lesson. Haha.
One girl even come up to me and said, Teacher Fiza, you are very beautiful. Awww. So sweet.
K2 children are easier to manage as they understand better what you want as compare to k1.

K2 children.
I hardly remember their names.

My K1 children.

From Left,

Dylon and Austin.
Dylon is the "class gangster". However, he is smart and memorize things easily.
Austin is a Japanese. He is very fast in doing his school work.

Sabrina, Li Shou, Yi Dong, Cai Yun, Austin.

Cai Yun, Chuan Xin, Ika.
Cai Yun is very neat in her work. She draws very well.

Ika, the quiet one, Shannis, the prettiest girl in the class, Allegra.

Krin, Risqi, Chuan Xin, Allegra.

Solomon.

Mei Xuan, Yi Dong.

There's missing ones.
Yi cai, Srujan, Sriram.

I love my K1 children.
They are as sweet as candy. I even promised them some candies.
Perhaps that will be for next week when they behave.

This song reminds me of my past.
It really does so much. Haha. Bygones are just bygones.
Atleast now I know that I don't have to think that way anymore.
I don't have to be jealous with anyone else.

I'm beautiful in my own way.

2009-04-07T20:13:00.013+08:00

A woman died after eating highly popular rojak in Geylang.
It was such a pitiful news. Who can we blame here?
The food? The Rojak man who prepares the food? The cooker?
The Rojak man who handles and pack the food? The bacteria comes from the place itself?

If you were to look at Geylang Serai itself,
you can be sure that the condition of the place do leads to the tragedic case.
It is unclean and unhealthy.
Poor innocents people who were affected just
because they wanted to have a taste of the best Rojak.

Now what? The Highly Popular Poisonous Rojak in Geylang?

Next,

Yesterday, bro had his 25th years celebration.
We had a visit of night animals as a celebration at Night Safari.
To be honest, it is my ultimate first time.
Haha. I mean those kids will be like, aren't you singaporean?
Haha. Sorry, I used to go to the zoo and bird park just because I was granted free tickets.
You know what I mean those excursions.

It was fun though we decided to walk instead of taking the tram
which cost 10 bucks for a 15 mins or less ride.
How pathetic is that. Though it might be worth if you are not prone to walking.
We took like 45 mins to walk around the area and spot for animals.
We are even the noisest people there. Laughing and shouting at the animals.
Seriously, its like more of the animals watching us instead of us watching them.
The most interesting animal that really creeps me is the eagle owl.
Besides, from the visit, I got to know that those owl can spin their head 360degree.
Can you imagine that? Bro were like knocking the glass panel
and the owl spin her head completely to watch out for the noise.

Bro and his fiancee were the excited couple. Haha.
Bro received a bear and Oakley sunglasses from his dear
while we got him comic books and chocolates.

Dear Love,

Thanks for the surprise visit at work.
Thanks for the pizzahut.
It's hard to describe it here.
Even if it is possible, I rather say it to you then typing in my blog.
I had experience such a wonderful feelings upon seeing you.
3 days is too long for me. You should know what I mean.
Stay with me.

I love you always.

With love,
Querida. (Your Querida)

2009-04-04T22:49:00.003+08:00

Mum had such been a dear to me.
I was really touched by her.
She was exceptionally sweet yesterday.

Thank you mama, for the wonderful 20 years.
You are beyond perfection.
Nobody can ever replace you.

I love you with all my heart.
Please forgive me for all the sins I've done.
I'm sorry sometimes I do betrayed your words. Please forgive me.
I know I was such an ungrateful child sometimes.
I'll learn from my mistakes.

The moment you thought, THAT'S IT, it simply wasn't.
Life isn't a fairy tale.
I have to understand that.
I was just wrong all this while.

2009-04-03T13:14:00.002+08:00

Silence.
I'll shut my mouth from this moment.

Listen.
This is how I feel.

2009-04-02T13:58:00.006+08:00

A fun filled day with him.

I had so much fun watching muvee at SP.
SP seems a lil different.
I'm so jealous that the SP kids would be able to watch
blue ray dvd soon in a brand new place that
has just been reinvented and renovated at level 1 library.
Though it has not yet to be completed,
still I believe its gonna be a blast entertainment place in SP.
Oh I'm so jealous.
Can I be in SP again?

After which we went Vivo, it was plan that he wanted to shop,
but poor baby couldn't find the right things to be bought.
Oh, how I wish I got my pay soon. I wanna buy a belt at F21.
If only, I own the dollars. Haha. I would have shop till I drop.

Anyway, at that very night,
I got a call for an interview on Friday morning.
But since I'm working, they said they call me back to reschedule the time.
Oh I hope I didn't turn them down. I was just telling the truth.
And the truth is I am working.

Next, Night Safari on Monday.
Double date with bro and his fiance.

I love you.
What's with me, I'll find out soon.
I miss you dearly.

2009-03-31T21:39:00.003+08:00

Everyone seems to be enjoying what they call life.
Some received good news while some like me still waiting.
I wanted to know. There's in me that kept shouting and begging to know the truth.
What's more to life.
Time will tell.

2009-03-30T22:45:00.003+08:00

Testing the new font.
I destroy my own blog.
Haha. Reconstructing everything.
I'm such a good girl.

2009-03-30T19:21:00.011+08:00

He fetch me from work again today.
Received a prezzie from his sister.
Awww. Thank you for the Guess bag. Haha.
It was a long belated bday gift as said in the card.
So sweet of her. July gonna be a hard time for me. Haha.
His and his sister's bday.

Finally he got a hair cut. :) I like! No worries.
I wanna highlight my hair. Please. Only 44 bucks! It is on sale.
Can you imagine it, even hair services were on sale. Perhaps due to recession.

I was left behind. He didn't send me back as usual as he got last minute call from work.
We only got a few hours with each other.
He still managed to go shopping though.
Bought tshirt that he's been longing for. Very nice, and very nice price too.
Haha. You know what I mean.

I hate you for leaving me behind.
I was all excited about today's plan and it got cancelled at very last minute.
I even dress up for work. How painful when we reach Bugis.
I sent him to work just to be with him slightly longer. Haha.
Haiz. I guess I need to look forward for our back-to-school date
that will be this coming wednesday.
Oh gosh, how I miss SP so much.
We were like always having our little dates in school. Haha.
Almost every day we were be like sneaking out from our friends
and left them for our little dating. Taking tons of pictures.
Eating at Mac or any other foodcourts in SP, just the two of us.
Skipping class just to go out shopping or spent the time with the two of us.
Study dating at SMU and mesmerizing about going into University.
Only God knows how much I love him.
I used to pray to God to sent me someone who would love me
but I was given an angel instead. I feel blessed.
I really appreciate all the loves God given to me which sometimes I take for granted.
Do forgive me Allah. Omg, writing all this down, makes me wanna cry.
How I wish the life I used to have could be rewinded.
I guess what's ahead is even better. Things will get better in time.
Haha. It will. I have faith in my fate. Oh well, time will tell.

I love my job.
I dunno if God is showing me something.
Seriously, sometimes I do felt that way. Perhaps it might be true.
I hope I will be enlighten by something soon.
But all I know I'm enjoying myself for a moment.
Even though I know there's time when I'll break down
thinking about whether I'll be in or not. I'm really petrified.
I know mum, dad are there for me. God is there for me. He is there for me.
He always said to me, have faith in yourself, if it meant to be yours, it will.
It just will somehow. You are right. I guess it's true.

And that's y I love him so much.
Cause he's the best man I could go to when I'm down and need of a shoulder.
There's no need to promise you.
I know I will love you and you are going to be the love of my life.
I just knew deep down in my heart that you are the one.
And just like you said, if you meant to be mine, you will even how hard our relationship is.

Friends.
I miss my friends so much. Haiz.
Lately it's more of me, family and him.
I do want my friends too. Do update me about your well being.
Contact me. Meet me. Please do.

Anyway, I realised I don't listen to malay/indo songs anymore.
Blame him. You spoil me with english songs.
If you asked him, he can tell you all the latest english songs.
But when he said I like this indo song,
it will be like song that were "decades" ago. Haha.
You always make me smile.
Song from Jojo - coming for you, remind me of him when I was still uncertain over his love.
Time pass so quickly that I didn't realised it at all.
18 months. That's fast dear. You have been really special.
No other guy can ever be like you.

Hug and kisses.

2009-03-29T14:30:00.002+08:00

Eileen wrote such a memorable post that really touch my heart.
I miss those moments so much.
I miss everyone. Really.
DCHE Stage B. Great.

Skipping class.
Playing daidi in class.
Gossiping.
Sleeping.
Crapping.
Dancing.
Singing.
Laughing out loud.
Cam-whoring.
Copying during test.
Making noises inside the lab.

I guess the "party" is over.
All the good things has come to an end.

I'm hoping for miracle to happen.
Have faith in yourself. Yes I do.
I have faith in myself that miracle do happen.

I miss you darling.
I'm so sorry.

2009-03-25T18:30:00.002+08:00

Good morning Miss Fiza.
Haha. I got a job that last for 1.5 hours daily.
I was needed for a month or so, to help the center before they recruiting a teacher.
On the other hand, I'm waiting for a reply on other jobs that I've been applying.

Somehow, I can't wait for graduation day.
To be able to meet up and interact with my friends back.
It will be a great day I bet. Can't wait. Really.

Anyway Robinson made people crazy for shopping especially for dad.
The stuff there are cheap and worth buying.
Thanks mum dad, for the shopping treat.
And you darling, you have been such a wonderful man.
I mean it. Really. You have been constantly giving in without fail.
The bag, I really love it. I hope it will be my turn soon.

I'm so glad that I'm surrounded by loves.
Haha.

2009-03-19T22:14:00.004+08:00

Wow time flies.
Everything was fast.

I'll get a hold of my diploma soon enough.
Yay!

How much I miss those days.
This is the reality now.
I'll face it soon enough like a real WOMAN.
Yeah, A Woman. No more of a Girl.

I am enjoying my life to bits.
That I wish time will slow down.
With the closest one especially.
Like today, me and mum were doing spring cleaning.
I can finally breathe in my own room. Hahaha.
Like as if it was full of dung before this.
Oh well, I'm lucky to have a room on my own.
Thanks mum, for helping.
It was nice to be at home sometimes with mum.
Yet again, I wish I could go shopping now. Hahaha.
I need money, money, simply money.

I'm still waiting though.
Hoping for miracle.

One more thing, I'm hoping that I'll cleared my mind.
Gosh, May allah bless me.

How I miss that hair. Haha.
Those old-day photos enable me to see how much I have change so far.
Wow I didn't know that my skin shed so much, even my fats. Haha.
I used to be dark and "fat".
Mum said my cheekbones are getting higher. Haha.
Even He said I got natural "botox". What a joke.

People change, it's true. :)
I'm contented with what I have now.
The photos are those sweet memories that will be kept in my heart forever.

He said,"You are always beautiful to me."
I know he mean it because he love me.

The best part of being with him is that I can just let down my hair
and be what I wanna be.

I love you always.

2009-03-13T13:16:00.005+08:00

I was suddenly fascinated by human eye colors.
I have always admired the blue eyes humans.
I came to know that there are 3 elements within iris that contribute to its color.
The melanin content of the iris pigment epithelium,
melanin content within the iris stroma and the cellular density of the iris stroma.

The interesting phenomenon is that different region of the world have different eye color.
How cool is that. Asian are known as the dark eye color humans.
A range color from hazel to dark brown is the typical color.
Those Asian with vivid eye colors are naturally due to mixture of heritage.

To my surprise, eye color change do exist.
It is thought that exposure to light after birth triggers
the production of melanin in the iris of the eye.
And by the age of three, the eyes produce and
store enough melanin to indicate their natural shade.
Not only changes in eye color of infants are more common.
Even in adults, eye color changes are seen,
most often as a result of exposure to the sun.
Sunlight triggers melanin production in the eye, as it does to the skin.

That's when I decided to learn about editing of eye color using photoshop.
The best part was it wasn't as hard as I thought.
My eye color was naturally brown which was manipulated into 3 different shades.

This is the result:

Pardon me for the dark eye circle.

2009-03-13T00:14:00.007+08:00

There are so many people I missed.
How I wish I could meet them all. :)

And I'll miss you.

He brought me back to my childhood days.
Thanks for the Surprise. :)
Sorry for the Perrier.
I didn't know that it taste super bad though the bottle was Wow.

For goodness sake, mind your own business people.

I love you honey!

2009-03-08T15:34:00.003+08:00

It was 18th months ago when you stole my cool.
You had me at hello.

I love you.

18th months baby.
I love you since the first time I set my eyes on you.
18th months just indicate the time I had you hold me in your arms.

You deserve all the love I got in my heart.

2009-03-08T12:23:00.014+08:00

3 years had passed.
Suddenly everyone stood up and started to move on.
Move on to the next life.
Out of sudden in the midst of moving,
I came to realise that I am just a step ahead to cross the line of this life.
All the memories that lasted for 3 years twirl around my head.
The friendships, The crazyness, The enthusiastic, The willing and unwillingness to go to school.
Every tiny bits moments seems like a diamond.
It didn't felt the same as when I left Yusof Ishak.
Perhaps, its due to maturity.
Things are different now. It was still fresh in my memory when I first met Joyce and Eileen.
They are the two girls whom I first talk to. Joyce was a bit distance at first. The way she talked to me but after a while, the conversation starts to move.
Eileen is the bubbly girl. That's my first impression of them both.
After which I came to know Hainita, Ying Huan and finally Yvonne.
Hainita was all the way smiling, Ying Huan, she's the "ah lian", Yvonne was the quiet one.
Slowly I began to talk to the guys and everyone in the class.
Being the only malay girl in the stage B doesn't bothers me at all.
I wasn't neglected even a bit.
The bond we had was terrific.

There's this moment when I was walking, only GOD knows when,
all I know that I was only Year 1, I saw this particular guy.
After the heartbreaking years in Yusof Ishak, I had never really "look" at guys.
Somehow, things change me completely. Joyce said I was giving them a cold look.
It seems that I was holding this sign, "Not interested."
It may be seems that way, but I know that deep inside me,
how I wish I could be hold by someone I love.

Days passed by, I started to know my another group of friends.
The crazy ones. It started with Irsyad.
I began to know everyone by then except him.
It started with hello somehow I get through him.
There's when everything started.

I never regret knowing anyone of my friends.
You guys are one of the best thing happened in my life.
It was never the same if I were not to know anyone of you.
The support you guys gave, the smile and laughter irregardless of me being up or down.
The helping hands, The encouragements.
It was such a bliss.

Especially him.
I remember told him that we should be together after graduation.
I wasn't ready then caused we were blocked by so many problems.
However, if we were to stick that way, I don't think this "crazy" love might happened.
Nothing will happened. Further, I wouldn't be able to be this close with the "crazy ones"

Last day of school.

You're just different from all other guys that I've known and came across.
My sun wouldn't shine without you.
You don't have to try so hard for me to love you.
You had me at hello!
I love you with all my heart.

Dedicating Hello by Beyonce.
To everyone that came into my life.

"If I need you, you will be here
You will make the sacrifice
Don't fly me away
Don't need to buy a
diamond key to unlock
my heart
You shelter my soul
You're my fire when I'm cold"

2009-03-05T22:19:00.009+08:00

Fairy Point 1

3 days 2 night.
Super tiring but exhilarating.

Thanks baby for accompanying me on the 2nd night.
And bbq-ing for me.
I had so much fun.

Drop by at aunt house to give the left-over chickens which is quite a lot.
Cam-whoring with Maya's spec.

Posing nampak?!
Haha.

2009-02-28T19:13:00.009+08:00

He said that I can't post those pictures of his here.
But I decided to post cause he look damn cute in shades.
Falling in love with him all over again.
Haha.
He was force to wear it by me.
:)

I love you dear.
Nothing can ever separate me from you.

I really love taking pictures with him.

Oh well, finally exams have reached the end.
Insyallah, I would get a hold of my Diploma Cert in Chemical Engineering soon enough.
Everything passed so quickly.
I'm so blessed to be able to set myself in SP
and meet all my amazing friends.
They are especially one of the best thing that ever happen in my life.

Chalet Next.
Yay.

2009-02-22T10:47:00.006+08:00

My first Diamond

Thank you mum and dad for the lovely chain.
Brother for the perfume.
Eileen for the tshirt.
Hainita for the 99 gifts in PS.

I'm thankful to be who I am today.
I'm thankful to have such a beautiful family, friends, love and HIM(god).
I hope to experience more wonderful things in the future.

I love you mum, dad, bros. :)

The biggest card.
Bigger than last year.
Next year even bigger I think.
Hahaha.From who else, but him.
Mum said he is very creative and I agree.

You're my true love baby.
There's no denial to it.
I'm glad that I'm your first love. :)

2009-02-21T22:51:00.007+08:00

The day I grew a year older.

Sentosa.
Underwater World.
Pastamania.
Treasure Hunt for Surprises.

Just wanna thank you sweetheart.
You're the most sweetest man I ever known so far.
I love you.

2009-02-13T21:52:00.002+08:00

Take a deep breath.
Everything will be alright.

Soon it will be the time to move on.
This is really part and parcel of life.
All the good things will come to an end.
Let all this be the most sweetest memories
that will be treasured deep down in my heart.

Petrified.
Again, I'm petrified.

.
.
.

2009-01-31T20:33:00.007+08:00

Pictures update.

Friday was the last FYP meet-up.
The whole day was super shag.
Lucky, dad gave me the permission to drive to school.
Hehehe.
I was kind of an emo driver as I drove home alone.

Went to meet my bff and her boyfie.
Had so much fun laughing over our stupid and lame jokes.
Meeting them always makes me smile from ear to ear.
Dear join us after his victory in the soccer tournament.
I hope we could do this often you know.

Today is another shag day.
Just came back from FYP presentation.
I did my best.
Whatever the result is, I've done my best.
So proud of myself. :)
This mark the end of FYP and I will be graduating soon.
Oh dear. :(

Wore formal from top to toe.
I think my attire was super colorful.
Blue Shirt, Black skirt, Orange Yellowish heels, Yellow bag.
It was nice though to me.
My feet are hurt.
Blame the heels.

FYP Members

Dear, get well soon okay?
I really hate to see you sick.
I love you.

2009-01-26T23:59:00.005+08:00

Something that I've been waiting for.

Stole this picture from his phone.
A month ago I think.

My wish came true.
Thanks to my favorite partner.
I love you.

It's like the another happiest day of my life.
My ultimate first time.... :)

The wonderful round about we had for the day.
Marina Barrage.
East Coast.
Pass by Orchard.
MAC at tortoises house.
Back to my sweet home to do some coloring.
Watch ECLIPSE with him and mummy using the old-time style.

This is the only picture I have for today's.
The rest is with him.

Perfect CNY.

Thank you baby.
I know it's not easy being with me.
But I know you love me like a family.
Hehehehe.
I love you too.

This love is difficult but it is real.
I would never even wanna dream of me not being with you.

2009-01-24T23:23:00.006+08:00

Mini Ralph Lauren Tote

I wanna get this bag sooner or later.
I bought the large size previously. Love it so much.
But after looking at all my bags, I think i need a small bag for outdoor.

Can anyone be my santa and make my wish come true?
Hehehehe.

"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess"

"Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think"

Love story - Taylor Swift

Take me away and make me fly.
Love me with all your heart.
And I'll promise to be yours forever.

2009-01-22T22:35:00.006+08:00

Elated.
Contented.
Complacent.
Excited.

I had a wonderful mixed feeling right now.
Thanks dear for the Fish n Co, for the Surprise Heart-Shape Chocolate.
Sedap sekali! Belgium chocolate I like.
I had fun even though it was only like 2 hours of dating.

It was such a sad thing to miss out a day without going school with you.
I need to make full use of it.
Few more weeks before I'm out to be a polytechnic student.
Such a miserable thing.

Went to eat Pizza hut in school for lunch earlier.
Me, Eileen and Joyce came out with the spontaneous idea.
It's been so long since we had this girly chatting.
It feel so warm and nice. :)

Few more months perhaps before he gonna leave me to serve the nation.
I know he might be gone for only 2 weeks before he can go home every weekend.
Nevertheless, 2 weeks is like forever to me.
Am i being too aggregating?

I'm petrified.
Plus, I mean people keep say that NS is a big challenge for people who are in love.
However, I believe with real love and trust.
I can overcome it.

I love you. I really do.

2009-01-17T23:12:00.003+08:00

160109

Sakura.
The place was nice.
However, I'm not those type who can eat alot.
Thanks to bro for treating us family including him.
He even enjoy the pleasure of being with my family.
You're always welcome okay?
No matter what happened,
you will always be someone I heart and my best friend.
I love you.

170109

Wishes.

Have you ever wondered if all your wishes will come true?

There's a dozen of wishes I'm longing to have them came true.
I'm so petrified of going into the real world.
Will I survive later on?
Who will be with me as time move on?
How's my life gonna be?
Am I gonna live happily ever after?
It's there such thing anyway, fairy Tales come alive?

Went to NTU to check out the courses available there.
There are courses that I'm interested in.
The fact is I'm not sure if I stand a chance.
I wish and hope that I could make it there or any other University.
I do wanna make my parents proud once again. :)
I know how much they have sacrifice just to push me forward and make me be somebody.
Thinking about how much love they showered me, makes me cry.

I love you mum, dad.
I will never disappoint you.
I promise.

2009-01-15T13:23:00.005+08:00

A day at school.

At school still.
Blogging while waiting for Thermo Tutorial to start.
I don't wish school to end this fast.
Today is Thursday.
This marks the end of the week since friday there's no class.

Took picture of myself while lecture at 10.

Took picture of myself while waiting for Thermo Tut.

So vain. Haha.

I forgot to thank dear for giving mum a surprise
by sending the roses at my doorstep during her bdae.
He really made my mum's day.
Thank you very much for being my best delivery man.
That's sweet. :)

Chiao.
Class starting soon.

2009-01-14T21:35:00.010+08:00

Do you

Sometimes feel like crying and wanna be alone?
but at the same time wishing that
there's someone to wipe off those tears and comfort you?

Sometimes wish to run away just to be alone but that the same time wishing
there's someone to ran after you and stop you?

Sometimes wish that there's someone who can read between the lines?

Sometimes wish when you say you don't want
but there's someone who understood it that you do actually?

Sometimes wish there's someone sing it out to you,
"I'll be your angel. I'll be there to catch you when you fall."?

Sometimes wish promises aren't meant to be broken?

Sometimes wish to have a protector who protect you from danger?

Sometimes wish there's someone who will stand up for you?

Sometimes wish there's someone who give
the respect of being who you are?

Sometimes wish there's someone who thinks
you're the most perfect person in this world?

Do you?

"Whatever happens, I will be right there for you.
No matter how bad I may seems.
Let me be the one to protect you,
to catch you when you fall and be your angel.
May I be your true friend."

2009-01-13T23:54:00.006+08:00

Private.
Despaired.
Flabbergasted.

Happy birthday to my gorgeous Mummy!

Let me be the first and last person to wish her.

Bought her a wallet and rouge.
Followed by a bouquet of roses and ice cream.
Bro also bought her an ice cream cake that was absolutely delicious.
And also a bag which bro consider it as his Bonus gift.
Mum said it's the same to her.
Oh well, mum has finally reach her silver age.

I love you mum!
You are the best person in the whole universe to be with.

2009-01-10T22:48:00.003+08:00

The change.

This is me.
I've change.
From curly to straight.
Some say I have shed some fats.

I simply love the process of growing up.
So much change I've encountered.
I can't turn back time but I'm glad that
I am able to keep all those memories.

I'm glad to know THIS IS ME.
I am Nurhafizah Bte Zakaria.

2009-01-10T01:49:00.005+08:00

I just can't put myself to sleep.
So the last thing I'm gonna do is this.
After which, I'll force myself to shut these lovely eyes of mine.
Haha. Opssss. Hehe.

Anyway, I had the best 16th.
Well, it was so good to feel the love inclining again.
Not that we celebrate monthly. We don't actually.
Perhaps, I'm happy that things get better and better.
Like I've always say, I love him more each day.

Thanks for the joyous shopping trip for two days straight.
The best thing I own was a mini character from nightmare before christmas.
Haha. So cool. I'm not sure why I like to own this kind of stuff.
I bought him a poker card. Not those normal poker card. Vintage.
Nice! Wonderful! I even feel like getting one. Haha.
I play daidi and 21. :) Thanks to him and ya nas for forcing me
to learn daidi so that I can play with them when they have insufficient player.
Oh well, I had fun anyway.

Somehow, I had a thought of eating ice cream just now.
Went to meet Joyce at her work place to pass her gift from dear,
she gave me a cup of ice cream. Super duper nice! Thanks dear.

Okay.
Sleep. Sleep. Sleep.

Goodbye.

2009-01-07T22:39:00.004+08:00

I love you friends and you, dear.

FYP report has been submitted.
Our hardwork was put to the end yesterday.
I'm glad that finally it's over.
Weeks after weeks of struggling with time and energy to get everything done.
It's all worth while perspiring profusely while doing the experiments.
Haha.

I feel lighter now somehow.
However, it's not totally over yet.
FYP presentation. Oh well, I hate babbling about all those scientific stuff.
Sometimes I don't even know what am I talking about.

And there's this thing called Plant Design Process Equipment.
This module I really2 don't know what to say.
Just unmanageable.
We are suppose to design the process equipment, do costing of the detailed equipment,
plant layout, piping sizing and layout.
What the hell was that???
So many things to do yet so little time is provided.
This is just a test from god I suppose.
The fact that we are the first "suay" batch to take up this module,
there's nothing for us to refer to except from books in the library
that usually does not contain any related information.
And somehow I'm "glad" that my lecturer gave us an independent learning.
Yeah that's Poly life in Chem Eng.

Do come down to the booth ya starting tomorrow till 10th jan.
Like what Director of Chem Eng said to the freshmen and juniors,
"Out of my 14 years of my teaching years, your Year-3 seniors were the best batch ever."
"They are really very supportive and good sport for almost everything."
He even mention my name to them about me entered blah2... Hahaha.

So sweet. I know I'm gonna miss A LOT the hassle and hectic life in poly life.
The fun. The laughter. Everything was such a sweet memories even those bad ones.
The Mystery love.

It's really wonderful when you thought that you would never be with that someone,
suddenly he came right infront of your eyes and even into your heart.
I thought I was wrong to think that I might not get what I wanted. But that's not true.

:) Believe in yourself.
Believe that what you want, you'll get.
Be it now, sooner or later.

2008-12-31T19:08:00.007+08:00

It's a new year tomorrow.
People kept talking about their resolution for the year.
I think I have none. I can't think of anything.
My life lately don't seems to go the way I wanted.

Happy New Year People.
May all your wishes and dreams come true.
Insyallah.

We ain't talking since we left, it's so overdue.
It's cold outside but between us it's worse in here.

The world slows down
but my heart is fast right now
I know this is the part
where the end starts.

Everyday, seven takes of the same old scenes
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now before we go to sleep
But will we sleep once I tell you what's hurting me.

I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothing's wrong
But there is no more time for lies
'Cause I see sunset in your eyes

I can't take any longer
Thought that we were stronger.
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers

I hate this part right here.
And I just can't take these tears.
I hate this part right here.

Fell in love with the song.
Though it hurts me to listen. Haha.
Oh gosh. It ain't easy holding back sometimes.
But all I can do is be strong.

:)

2008-12-29T18:39:00.003+08:00

Fuck.
I think I need to check into the REHAB.
I'm fucking serious.

I feel like screaming.
I feel like throwing all my things at the wall
and laugh out loud once they are broken.
I know this is crazy.
But who cares.
It's not as if I'm this frustrated all the time.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

Life is very unreasonable sometimes.
Some things you seems to work hard for it,
but somehow you achieve the negative outcome instead.
I've been keeping every single thing that I'm unhappy about it my head.
I couldn't take this anymore.

Mum keep telling me, there's always reasons to why things happened.
But I see nothing.
All I see was I'm such an idiot. Stupid Idiot.

Sorry for the profanity.

2008-12-27T15:57:00.008+08:00

261208

Yesterday was such a peaceful day.
Went vivo to eat and lab park to chill with him.
Poor Baby must wait for me to finish every chapter of the book
before he can talk to me or disturb me.
It was such a pleasure moment.
We even had B&J.
Strawberry Cheesecake.
My favourite.
And as usual his favorite, Marble Cheesecake from Secret Recipe.
Hey, you are just the best thing that ever happened in my life.
We may make mistakes along the way but whatever it is, we forgive and forget.
Btw, I'm so happy that today we got the most breaking news.
Weeeeeee. I really can't wait for that day when...
I love you!

OppSssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

The only things that make me sane now is the BOOKS.
I'm serious.
Today is such a boring day.
Perhaps, I need to get some rest after going to a such tiring event.
The experiences I came across were wonderful.
I hope I could do this again more often.
Hehehe.

Introducing...

Me, Kak Julie (Make-up Artist), Kak Dyan (Model, Artist)

Me and Kak Dyan.

Me and Didi Cazly (Actually I don't really know him)
They keep telling me about his songs and I was like "huh?"

Me and Mrs Worldwide.

Me and Him.

Book-Worm Alert.
See ya.

2008-12-26T20:45:00.007+08:00

Twilight.
That's the only book I didn't get to owe.
New moon, Eclipse and Breaking dawn.
I just love the way Stephenie Meyer wrote her books.

Thanks dear for the Eclipse and Breaking dawn.
It was such a surprise gift.
I never expect you to complete the series for me.
Thank you so much!!!!! I love you. Hehehe.

Yesterday was super tiring but such a wonderful experience.
It was my ultimate first time and I had met such great people.
Again, thanks to my number 1 supporters, mum, dad and him.
Hahaha.
Maybe in 7-8 years time, I might be as gorgeous as yesterday.
Insyallah.
Thanks to kak Juli for such a wonderful make-over.
It was perfect even though I don't really like the outfit I wore.
.

I do wanna make all my dreams come true.
Dear, I love you.
I hope you will be there to help my dreams came true ya.

Oh ya! Have fun people.
See ya on monday!
School gonna be hectic.
I hope I'm ready.

Some of my random photos.
Hahaha.

I look like a ghost here. Ewww.

2008-12-22T22:44:00.002+08:00

Its hard trying to keep it away.
I'm just too emotional.
I guess today, I've overreacted.

I just feel like writing everything down.
But I can't.
Some things are meant to be personal.
Shoot.

I hate myself for being too defiant.
I'm just so headstrong.
I wish I could change it.
But I can't.
I don't know what I want.

I hate myself for many reasons.
I hope God forgive me too.

God, Please do.

2008-12-21T15:43:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I keep having these thoughts of why, what, how.
Sometimes I wish I could turn back times and change things.
Sometimes I wish certain things never happened in my life.
Sometimes I wish to live in fantasy.
Sometimes I wish for things that are impossible.

Impossible?
Some say nothing is impossible in this world.
Some say fairy tales do exist.
How am I to believe all that?

The wind is blowing breezily across my room
I'm feeling the chill. The weather really change my mood.
I'm not sure how, it just does.

Oh god, there's a lot of things that I'm afraid of.
I'm afraid to go through the inevitable future.
Some things are left vague.
Too vague to even understand what will I be in the future.

I'm petrified.
Will you be my prince charming and save me?
Will you be the one who sacrifice everything for me?
Will you be the one who cry, laugh with me?
Will you be the one who will be there for me when I need one?
Will you be the one who will do anything just to pluck me all the happiness?

Whatever the future will present for me, I'm contented with what I have now.

I hope your tears are few and fast
I hope your dreams come true at last
I hope you find love that goes on and on and on and on and on
I hope you wish on every star
I hope you never fall too far
I hope this world can see how wonderful you are

You came like crashing thunder
breaking through these walls of stone
You came with wide eyed wonder
into all this great unknown
You're so amazing.

Love,
your Querida

2008-12-17T20:26:00.003+08:00

One is from Eileen, the other is from Joyce.
Awww. So sweet. Even before Christmas, I already got presents.
So happy! Hehehe. Few days ago, I gave them a daisy each.
To joyce, eileen and hainita. They were also given a box of chocolates.
Hahaha. Thanks gals for those sweet gestures.
It's so fun, exchanging gifts. Happened only once a year. Hahaha.
Kinda feel dejected, as this year being our last year.
I mean I had so much fun. And it's only feel like a short period of time.
Time flies so fast. I hope our friendship doesnt stop here.
There's more to come aite?
I'm actually waiting for each and every one of us wedding dinner.
Hahaha. Remember do save money.
Eileen already gave us a coin box.
Should be more than enough till our happiest day.
Hehehe. 10cent per day.

Enough of crapping.
I'm tired and feeling all stressed up.
FYP is like never-ending. The report is dead long.
Another important thing coming up soon.
I'm kinda feel nervous thinking about it.
Tomorrow, I'm going to have a meeting with an important people.
Omg. I kept wondering how am I gonna face the people there.
What are they gonna asked me?
What will I be doing down?
Oh god, please save me.
I must look exceptionally good.
Thanks dear for the skirt. I really love it.
Atleast I have something new to wear tomorrow.
Hehehe.

I wanna go out like I used to.
But I can't.
I feel grateful that atleast, I'm not alone.
Sayang is always there for me. Haiz.
He's always there to make my day good even though
I only sat down infront of my boyfie every day to discuss and do FYP report.
Can you imagine how tiring it is?
I guess all the year 3s might understand how I feel.
Thinking about my future, I'm not sure what to do once I graduated.
Still haven decide where to go, what to do.
I hope I might get into Uni, if not get a decent yet well-paid job.
I guess this is life. Choices. I have to make choices.
Left or Right? Good or Bad? I make the choice.

Mama, please help me. I'm scared of the outside world.
I hope I can survive.
I love you.

2008-12-12T17:40:00.003+08:00

Memories that last forever.
Thanks Hainita for such a beautiful video of JEFH.
I love it so much.
Thank you for every single minute we spend together.
You girls somehow touch my life.
I almost breakdown when I see this vid.

I love you girls.

Muahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

2008-12-11T20:22:00.014+08:00

091208

Marriott Hotel

CLS Dinner and Dance.
We had a magical moments during the night.
Somehow I feel like a princess.
A big flying kiss to my aunt for making me a princess.
Even though I was still sick that night.

For the first time, I saw his face change when he saw me.
Haha. You make me blush.

Taking pictures with you is always fun.

The night seems unstoppable.
Camwhoring like mad even when it was in the midst of eating.

Every one of the DCHE girls look absolutely stunning.
Oh well, DCHE is getting HOTTER now. Haha.

These are the people whom never fail to make me laugh.
You guys are rock my dress.
As usual, I'm the most prettiest of them all. Haha.
The only princess among all.
Okay, I shall stop before they puke infront of me when I see them next time.

There's more pictures that I've uploaded at facebook.
There's also more pictures that dear still keep in this pc.
I'll uploaded all as soon as I got them.
So anyone who wanna claim their pictures, go facebook okay?

The time past so quickly yet the fun that last forever.
May every one of you be in my sweet memories.
Especially you, my dear. Always and forever.
What you said to me today, touch my heart. I love you.

Love,
Princess Querida.

2008-12-07T15:40:00.006+08:00

Still sick.
Still laying down like a baby.
Keep falling asleep.
Somehow I feel lethargic even after sleeping.
It's like I wanna sleep and sleep again.

I took another dose of medicines.
This means that I'm gonna be back to dreamland soon.
I took time off to blog cuz I'm super bored.
I had been lying on my bed for hours.
Whenever I got up, I'll get this free roller coaster ride.

Typing right now is also tiring.
Omg. I feel so old right now.
Honey, please do visit me.
Atleast when I look at you, my face glows.
Just like yesterday when you came down to "visit" me,
you said I look okay. Haha.

You'll look super good on that day k syg.
I'm not sure if I can make it.
I wanna be your prom date.
So I must get well soon!

Tomorrow is Haj Day.
Yay! We can eat kambings!
Mummy and Dad gonna get a free ride to syurga.
Insyallah. :)
Bro is so sweet as he paid for the kambings for both my parents.
I'm happy for my parents.
They had been wanting to slaughter the kambings like eons ago.
(exaggerating) Hehehe.
However, atleast one of their wishes came true.

I wish I could make the rest of my parents' wishes come true.
Insyallah. Only god knows what, how and when.

I miss you baby.
I know in reality there's ups and downs.
But my love for you never change.
I love you then, now and later.
Please don't change.
I need you always by my side.

This picture is taken during our casual outing after school.
We just started to learn to love each other then.
My hair still curly if you realised.

2008-12-06T09:49:00.008+08:00

Imagine that the pillow that
you cried on was my chest,
and the tissue that you wiped
your face with was my hand.

Not trying hear you tell nobody that I'm just a friend,
just trying to make sure I'm that body that you call your man,
and anytime you need a shoulder
it's yours, night or day,
but what I'm trying say is, I wanna be.

The last number you call late at night,
The first one that you dial when you open your eyes.
Wanna be the one you run to,
Wanna be the one that ain't gonna hurt you,
I wanna be yeah, I wanna be yeah.
Be the man making your girl jealous,
be the guy shuttin' down all the fellas.
whatever you need, girl, it's all on me:
soldier, your friend or your lover, girl,
I wanna be.

Chris Brown - I wanna be

How sweet.
Falling sick again. My body just too vulnerable lately.
I know this is just another God's test.
I think I had a breakdown after the MST.
Somehow my body just couldn't take it anymore.

Not sure if I could make it to Grad.
Haha. I'm feeling all shivering now.
My head is spinning like a roller coaster.

Fever
Flu
Cough
Sore Throat
FFCS Disease.

This time round of MST, is just demoralizing.
I hope for the best.

2008-11-29T17:00:00.004+08:00

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Memories that last forever.
You darling people out there makes me feel that I can fly AGAIN.

Thank you very much to my beloved family esp my mama.
She had made me such a beautiful skirt,
bought me such a silvery cool earrings.

Thank you to my darling DCHE/23.
You guys rock my skirt. Haha.
I'm touched by all the gestures you did.
Draw a poster of my name.
Buying me flowers.
Specially taking your time off just to come down and support me.
That's sweet.

Thank you to the rest of my DCHE cliques, friends and Director.
You guys WOW me.
Making me feel like I'm the biggest star of the night.

The most special person I would like to express my gratitude to is Mr SP.
He had done so much for me.
Sacrificing his time for me.
I would like to thank you for the willingness to help me.
You such a wonderful friend.

And of course,
my love.
You have been the ultimate motivator that comes from within.
I'm proud to have you.
You are my heart and soul.

Don't be mistaken.
I'm not a loser for not achieving the top 3.
I'm still the winner at least to my family, friends and my director of DCHE.
That's what they say.
Those words touch me a lot.
I'm didn't fret or feel dejected that I didn't achieve any award.
In fact, I'm happy at least I know those people who supported me are proud of me.

I wish one day I could blow everyone away with this hobby of mine.
Singing.
Haha.

Spotted.

That's like as if I'm one of the top 3.
People who came down might know what on earth I'm talking about.
Haha.

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I sang during the CLS Graduation Party
with a group of friends who played instruments.
Game of Love.
Many seems to love that song.
Thanks.

In addition to that, I was surprised by a wonderful news.
I've won 150 cash money for sending memories of CLS.
These are the pictures I had sent.

You always pull me up when I'm down,
facing the usual round.
You always put a smile on my face.
It's you who create the space.

With you, nothing else seems to matter,
yesterday, now or later.
You make each and every second,
minute, hour and day sweeter.

My course-mate, lecture-mate,
bestfriend and everything.

The first time I saw her.
I know to me she is someone near.
As time pass by, I was right.
She is someone I heart.

She is a friend who understands me well.
A quality that can never sell.
She is a shoulder to lean on.
Compare to others, they are none.

True friends that last.
They are the people I trust.
We smile, we laugh, we cry.
3 years of friendship that never die.

I didn't know that my poem touched my friends heart.
Thanks girls for being a wonderful friends.
I love you girls.

Raymond say he saluted me for being daring enough
to express my feelings to everybody
for him by posting up the "Monkey love" picture.

Oh well, this is what LOVE does to me.
I'm totally different person now.
I don't even know how on earth I have the courage to perform all.
I guess LOVE provide me with inner strength.

True Love do change you (for better).

Next stop,
D&D cum Graduation/Prom Night.

I feel like a SUPERHUMAN for the first time.
Family and friends,
You change my whole life.

2008-11-23T03:30:00.008+08:00

Mr & Ms SP
Congrats to my dear friend, Shahril Bahri for winning the crown.

The supporters.

There's more. Just that, I'm lazy to upload.

The person who love me with all his heart. Omg. You look so exceptionally Wow!
My heart almost drop when I look at these pictures.
Anyone agrees with me? Haha.

Maybe you might be crown as Mr SP, dear, if you were to join. LOL.

Don't agree? It's okay.
I know he's my Mr Right. Haha.

I love you.
I miss you too.

2008-11-22T01:02:00.001+08:00

PRIVATE.